I've been hearing more about how so-and-so has been bitching about me lately. It no longer shocks me when someone says someone said something about me. And it all seems to come down to this. This stupid blog. I don't regret making it, I regret giving my so called 'friends' access to it. I knew it was risky. I mean, why would I let people I've known for nearly 5 years see opinions I have voiced in type? It's as if I thought they'd respect my opinion and maybe even share theirs, tell me they liked something I said. Oh, how naive I was!! Yes, I've had a number of people tell me they enjoy my blog, that one thing in particular they liked and agreed with. . . .but the amount of shit I've had for this is absurd.
It's not like I haven't voiced these opinions before. . . .yeah, I'm blunt with what I say, some things might be a little brash or maybe even shocking, but I don't cause offence (intentionally), I don't single people out or bitch about people, I just say what I think about things. . .why can't I do that?
What exactly have I done wrong to deserve all this shit??? Tell me. Seriously! If you've managed to find the new web address and don't like something I've written, put an anonymous comment below and TELL ME!!

Although, I really couldn't give a shit. I have friends who realise that these other people are being twats and that I haven't actually done anything. And I have plenty of friends outside of school. There's 6 months left of school. I'm focusing on my exams in that time and preparing to go to Africa for a year. Then I don't have to talk to anyone I don't want to. Which is probably more than you'd expect. You don't like me?? Well, there is a very big chance that I don't like you either. But I have the decency and respect to be CIVIL about it. 
I feel like I'm the new 'thing' to talk about and bitch about. Why???? Even people I haven't spoken to for months are jumping on the bandwagon.
And you lot who are still being all nice to me and everything and bitching about me behind my back - you know who you are!! - I'm not a moron. I know. Like I said, I have friends. So stop being so 2 faced and if you don't like me, don't talk to me. If you really want to argue it out with me, fine, whatever. There's a good chance I don't want to be friends with you either.

Fuck you all :)

So Moffat tells us we've all missed something.

I rewatched The Reichenbach Fall yesterday because of this. Well, rewatched the whole series, but yeah.
And I came up with something...

Mycroft says to Watson that they were trying to get the computer key code out of Moriarty. He wouldn't say ANYTHING until Mycroft comes in. Mycroft says that Moriarty told him something. It wasn't the key code, if it was it wouldn't matter because there IS no key code. It is also clearly good enough to release Moriarty. And the information is also worth Sherlock's life story.

WHAT IS IT?!?!?!?!?!

I think there is something there. 


Something else I noticed - When Sherlock steps on to the ledge, before he jumps, there is no blood or anything. The ledge is clear. Then, after Moriarty shoots himself and Sherlock steps about on, there is blood on the ledge.
No idea what it could mean, but it was something I noticed...


I also don't think Moriarty is dead. I mean, think about it, what is Sherlock without Moriarty? And series 3 was commissioned at the same time as 2 so Moffat and Gatiss KNEW they had 6 episodes to work with. Why would they kill off Moriarty???? 
Also, now this is a long stretch, but I was talking to someone about it. What if THAT isn't Moriarty? (Now, I don't remember this but my friend said he said it) But apparently Moriarty said something along the lines of No one actually talks to Moriarty. What if he meant that literally?? What if HE is just some pawn that is used by the REAL Moriarty, therefore the real Moriarty, the brains, is alive.
It's a very long stretch I know, but yeah, it's another suggestion. Either way, I don't think Moriarty is dead.

So it seems a lot more people have been reading my blog that I thought. In one sense this makes me happy that people are taking the time to read it, but then it makes me angry to hear that people are using it as ammunition to bitch about me.
Firstly, if you have ANY issue with anything I say, leave a comment. You might have misunderstood and I can correct you. If not, I'd prefer you to tell me to my face.
Secondly, this is just my opinion, I'm not forcing any of it upon anyone, if you don't like it, that's fine, that's your opinion. I respect that.

More specifically, I would like to say that I have NOT slagged off state schools. As I said in that post, I love the school I'm at at the moment; they've helped me get exam results that I'm very happy with, the teachers are all great and most of the people are lovely. I wouldn't go back to my old school if I was given the chance.

Also, I do not think I am 'better' than other people because I went to a private school. Again, that's your prejudice that private schools are better and therefore I think I'm better because you presume I have the same opinion. At ONE of the schools I went to I have a high level of education. That's a fact about that school. That has nothing to do with my intellect or anything, it's a good school. That's all. The second private school I went to had an education level equal to your average state school. People who went there were just rich (I wasn't though. I'm poor. The army paid my fee).

Finally (think this is my last point), when I said that some people made school a place I sometimes didn't want to be I wasn't bitching. I didn't name anyone, I didn't say anything bitchy about them, I just said how I felt. Because that is how I feel. If you felt targetted by that comment then maybe it means that it is you that's made me feel like that. Again, that's not me bitching, that's me being bitched about by you.

At the end of the day, this is just how I feel, it's my opinion, and if you don't like it DON'T READ IT.


Also, if I was targetting people and trying to boast and stuff, why would I give those people access to my blog????

My mom got a letter through the door a couple of months ago about the Autosport Show. We hadn't actually heard of this show before, and we had just been to Top Gear Live a couple of weeks previously. It seemed to be fairly similar to that, having a load of traders, lots of cars, a Live Action show, celebrities, so it looked pretty good. Of course price is always an issue. Top Gear Live Platinum tickets (which is what we got) are £105. That's a lot, and because they seemed like similar events we were a bit cautious about the price of this. It was £37 per ticket, and a 3 for 2 offer. Hell, that's good value. So we bought tickets!

And now here I am, 3 hours after leaving the NEC. Completely shattered, but still on a complete high.

As we neared the NEC we could tell which cars were headed for the same destination: the cars were full of men. We got to the car park, not a woman in sight. No, wait, there was one. But she had clearly been dragged there by her husband. Fortunately, we got into the hall and did see a handful of other women.

The show is huge. No. It's COLOSSAL.. We immediately got lost, but who cares if you don't know your coordinates when you're surrounded by incredible machines! The first thing we did was go to the Live Action Arena (even though it took us an hour to get there) which introduces you to so many different kinds of motorsport, I have a desperate urge to try them all out. Particularly Formula Jedi (might just be the name though...). Jason Plato was a great host, even though he destroyed the gearbox of a car,
again, 5 minutes in. I won't spoil anything else because I think you should all find out what happens yourself by buying tickets next year!

The rest of the show is jam packed with traders from all different aspects of motorsport. Being a Formula 1 fan quite a lot of the stalls went over my head. But then there was the F1 stage which had interviews with Jake Humphrey, David Coulthard, Christian Horner, Allan McNish, Darren Turner, and loads of other people. There is even the chance to meet the stars and get their autographs. However (now this is my only criticism) the slots are 15 minutes each, and when Jake Humphrey and David Coulthard are doing a signing after their interview you end up with 200+ people queuing, including myself. It is not physically possible to get that many people through. I was devastated when I saw security lead them away before I got a chance to get their autographs. But DC went in my direction and I saw a mob of people following him throwing autograph slips infront of his pen. I hesitiated, thinking I'd lose my place in the queue for Paul Di Resta who was on an hour later, but then I went for it. It was then or never. So I joined the mob, that was starting to dissipate, also throwing my autograph slip into his pen, and just as he was about to leave the hall I managed to get him to sign it.
My. Day. Was. Made.
I also managed to get really close to the front of the queue for Paul's autograph, and after 45 minutes of waiting, I met him. And touched his finger (to a fan, it's the tiny details that mean everything). 

There was also a lot to actually do. There were dodgems, go-karting, and a Caterham Experience. The Caterham Experience was incredible. So exhilirating. And very good value for only £10 (...considering at Top Gear Live some people try to charge you that to sit in their car and have a picture taken that isn't even by them).
You can see my experience on YouTube (my face looks weird though. I'm just trying to hold myself in the car. Throws you about like a bloody rollercoaster!) -> http://www.youtube.com/user/SarahwDW?feature=mhee

By 5 o'clock we were shattered. Completely and utterly shattered. But that is the sign of a brilliant day out. So we had a look at some supercars and went home for a chinese.

Overall, it was a brilliant day. And actually completely different to Top Gear Live, but not at all in a bad way.

I will be going again.

I had a range of education growing up. I'm a 'military brat' so I moved house every 2 years up until the age of 12/13 when my parents divorced. This obviously meant changing schools every 2 years. Being part of a military family means we got special bursaries for private boarding schools. So, whilst living in Germany, I was shipped off to a school called S.Anselms in Bakewell at the age of 7.
7?! You say. Yeah, I was young. Very young. Too young, maybe? I don't know. All I know is that when I went on my taster day I cried on the way home because I wanted to stay there. I spent 4 happy years there, seeing my parents every half term, maybe more frequently. I then spent 2 more years at another private school called Abbotsholme near Uttoxeter.
People who have never been to a private school have a certain perception of them. They're 'posh', 'snobby', and a range of other adjectives that have the same meaning. Some are posh, yes. But not every private school is Eton.
When I moved back to Tamworth and went to a state school I got teased for being 'posh'. I had eloquence so people assumed I was posh. (I don't mean I had elocution e. I just didn't speak with a local accent. I went to school in Derbyshire. They speak properly over there.) But I'm not posh, never have been. I'm poorer than most of my friends. It's not like we even paid the whole fee for boarding school. From several thousand a term (each - me and my sister) down to a few hundred.
And what's wrong with being posh anyway? Why would it matter if I was posh?
So I had a good education. No. A bloody good education. You get what you pay for. At my equivalent of primary school I played in competitive sports matches from the age of 8. I learnt French from the age of 7, doing GCSE level French by year 6. In year 6 when I was 10/11 I did 13+ exams. I did Latin for 2 years. The naughtiest kid there was the equivalent to your average kid in any other school. It wasn't that all the kids were super clever and super boring so didn't act out. It was just a bloody good school. We didn't sing any of those fun hymns that people talk about - I don't know any of them. Never did them. We sung from the Songs of Praises hymn book. We did 8 hours of P.E. a week.
You get what you pay for.
However, the only issue with that school is that the high level of education is difficult to be upheld after you leave at 13 (I left at 11 though) because other schools tend to stick to the national curriculum. However, at the end of the day private schools are businesses so they can do what they want in terms of what they teach you, so they can teach to reach children's potential.

But, back to my initial point, going to a private school doesn't make you posh. Just means you're fortunate to be able to afford a better education. The only logical explanation of why one would think poorly of public schools is that they are simply jealous they never had the opportunity to go to one.
And people who do talk badly of them have never been to one, never spent a day there, never realised that it's just a school. They are completely ignorant making their opinion completely irrelevant. But usually better than you're average state school.

Having said that, I have nothing against state schools. I enjoy the school I go to at the moment. There's nothing wrong with it. The education is good, people are nice etc.

Also, people assume that because people who go to private schools are posh, they're stuck up and are good, law-abiding citizens. No, no. There are more drugs at private school, more alcohol, more extravagant parties. . .there's more scandal at private school in one year than in 5 years at state school.

I was watching 2012 today. The apocolyptic film where the sun flares stuff and stuff happens to make the tectonic plates move freely, Silverstone erupts, world is pretty much destroyed. Good film. Apart from the whole giant-boat-spaceship-thing. That was kinda weird.
But everyone knows about the Mayan 'belief' that the world will end on the winter solstace of this year. Peopl think the Mayans knew this because that is the date their calendar ended.
I don't know much about the Mayans, but I know they're an ancient tribe and they aren't really around much today. Because they're dead.
So if they're long dead, surely their calendar had to end at the latest when they all died.
And HOW would they know that 21st December is when the world will end. HOW?!?! Did their God come to them in a vision? Who knows. 'God' has come to many people and said the end of the world is nigh. And we're all still here. They were probably all on the wacky backy. Actually no. That stuff is tame compared to what they probably too. . . anyway.

It's bullshit. End of.

And if it were to follow what happens in '2012' then we would have noticed the effects 2 years ago.

This is partially linked to my previous point...

I have The God Delusion on my Kindle and I was talking about philosophy and religion with a friend who is studying it for A Level so I started reading it.
You may know the book, if not, you'll probably know the author, Richard Dawkins. Infamous for his blunt, maybe arrogant, atheist views.
I had someone tell me today that he's just 'as arrogant as religious preachers'. Yeah, it may be true, but why's that a relevant point? Atheism is, in a kind of way, a religion. A religion is after all a set of beliefs. Atheism is a set of beliefs that are based on fact, who cares if he's arrogant? If you read the book you'll see he's got a bloody good reason to be!
So I started reading it. I read the Preface, which was just explaining the book and the point of the book. And I was hooked. Everything he says is logical. He has clearly done a HELL of a lot of research, and everything he says is completely logical and it just makes simple sense.
It is as if Dawkins has gone inside my mind and articulated everything I couldn't put into words into words.
I might be slightly bias in that I was an atheist before I started reading it, but I believe that atheists are more open minded in terms of faith than any religious person. Someone who believes in God will look at nothing else. They can't be convinced into anything else.
But the book is just so bloody brilliant. Dawkins makes so excellent points, but each time he uses a real life example to prove his point, and therefore showing the advantages of atheism.

Its so brilliant. Read it. Believe in God or not, read it. Whether you believe in God or not, it will provoke so many thoughts in your mind, bring to light so many other religions, perspectives, other people's views on things you had never ever thought of.
It delves into the meaning of religion, and of God. I mean, I could say I was an atheist just as much as I could say I believed in the Pantheist religion. People never equalise religion and atheism, but Dawkins presents them on the same level, but also on different levels.

I cannot go into how brilliant this book is. Dawkins brings up so many points, that so many people don't think of.

I should also add that I have only read the Preface and Chapter 1.


Buy it.
Read it.
LOVE it.

My ONLY reservation about it is that I hate it when people shove their beliefs down other people's throats. Fine, believe in God, have faith, just keep it to yourself. I accept that if you pick the book up to read you're allowing yourself to be bombarded by atheism, but Dawkins says in the Preface that he hopes when you finish the book you will be an atheist. I don't think changing someone's religion is a very good, or particularly admirable thing. If someone believes, that's their choice. I may not agree with what they believe, but as long as they don't make me believe what they believe I don't care. A better way around that I think could have been saying that he hoped some people would realise he has relevant points and would consider atheism as a positive thing, rather than bluntly saying You will become an atheist if you read this. That'll put people off. Don't be put off though. It's brilliant.


I would also recommend a Kindle to anyone too :) great gadgets. So handy. Never thought I'd want one - I love holding a book, turning the pages, in the same way I prefer CDs to downloads. But I love my Kindle.

So school starts again for me on Wednesday. I must say that I've been good and pretty much all my work is done. But the past couple days have just been so depressing. I have some lovely friends at school who I adore and most people in the year are genuinely lovely, but there is so much bitching. There are less than 50 people in the whole 6th form (we have no year 12) which made me think that the year would become close and happy and everyone would get on.
However. This is not the case. What has happened is that all the bitching and conflict has just become more concentrated. And it's made school a place that I just don't want to be. There are people there that I know don't like me and can't be mature about it. And there are people that haven't realised they're adults and act worse than the year 7s.

All I have to say is that I can't wait for these next 6 months to be over and done with and I only have to talk to the people that I actually want to and don't have to see anyone I don't want to ever again.

Doctor Who has had me quite riled for a while now. I would like to say though, before I get started, that I think Matt Smith is a great Doctor. He's put his own little clumsy spin on it which I think works for what they've done with the show, and Amy Pond is a character that has gradually grown on me, but never had anything agaisnt Karen herself, she seems lovely.
Anyway, getting to the nitty-gritty stuff. Think back to the days of series 1 of Doctor Who. The Eccleston days. Remember the episode Dalek? When we discovered they could levitate? Were you scared? Yes. Yes you were. Everyone was. Were you gripped by how gripping it was? Yes. We all were.
Now think a few episodes forward to The Empty Child & The Doctor Dances. You know, the shit-your-pants-creepy-one-with-the-creepy-child? Yeah, that one.
Now jump forward to series 3. Blink. With the Weeping Angels and Sally Sparrow. Yeah, the one where everyone who watched it was terrified to blink for days and you stared at every statue because you were scared it was going to kill you or something.
Those episodes stand out to me as being properly good, slightly scary, utterly gripping episodes.
Now, for the point of this rant, name an episode that comes close to the terror and brilliance of any of those. Stuck, aren't you. And don't go saying the episodes where they brought the Weeping Angels back in series 5. That was awful. THEY CAN'T MOVE. And don't even get me started with the whole Pandorica thing. That was a sham.
Now, I'm not saying there haven't been good episodes, James Corden was great in his 2 episodes and Neil Gaiman wrote a brilliant episode that I adored the concept of (The Doctor's Wife). And that episode introduced me to the works of the brilliant writer and I'm currently reading American Gods, which is bizarre but brilliant. But again, none of those episodes were scary, none had you on the edge of your seat.
I think the parting of RTD definately had something to do with it. Series 5 was, in my opinion, god-awful. I think it must have had something to do with people taking on new roles and getting comfortable without RTD (still, not a great excuse). And then series 6 came and it was much, much, much better. And so people raved. And so did I.
But then I watched series 1 and 2. And I realised that series 6 only seems so brilliant is because it was so much better than series 5. But that still puts it below series 1-4. I'm not complaining about the new series' for the sake of it; I'm upset that they're not as good, I'm longing for a terrifying storyline that puts the Doctor's life properly in danger to the point you think he is going to die. (I get that there's the ongoing storyline of the Doctor dying because of the astronaut, yadda yadda yadda.) But it's just not the same. And it makes me sad.

It would be interesting to know if anyone shared the same opinion, or think that I'm talking utter tosh. Comment below :)